Showing posts with label midwife. Show all posts
Showing posts with label midwife. Show all posts

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Conversations

Thank you so much for your continued prayers. Many of you have expressed interest in how we are doing. Like most of you, we have been immersed in a good but intensely focused season of celebrating. In the midst of our celebrating, we’ve been having some good conversations that I’d like to share with you:

Connor (3) had a conversation with our baby girl when he came to snuggle with us on a particularly cold morning in early December. His little hands were like ice because in his world socks are optional. With a little prompting from Daddy, though he didn’t need much, Connor decided to say hi to the baby in mommy’s tummy with his ice cold hands; baby girl promptly “told” him “hands off” with a kick. He still laughs about the baby telling him his hands were too cold. What a treasure!

We also treasure a conversation Connor had with Jesus on the day after Thanksgiving. Layne’s parents bought us an early Christmas present and Connor asked why. Layne asked him whose birthday we celebrate on Christmas and why God sent Jesus to earth. Connor knew it was Jesus’ birthday we celebrate and that God sent Jesus to earth to die for his sins. Connor confesses Jesus is Lord and believes in his heart God raised Him from the dead so that he is saved. Please rejoice with us!

I love the conversations Layne has with our baby girl. She loves to move underneath his warm hands. Sometimes she “hides” so that he will play “hide and sneak,” as our kids call it, making him press on my belly until she kicks back. Such fun!

I enjoy the conversations that just she and I have usually late at night or early in the morning when everyone else is sleeping. When I finally sit or lay down, she wakes up ready to “talk.” She also lets me know when she particularly enjoys a meal I’ve enjoyed! The girl likes pie! I’m really enjoying our little girl.

We’ve also had a few conversations with our midwives in the last few weeks. In our last post, we expressed our desire not to chase after a diagnosis in such a way that our need to know our baby’s condition would inhibit us from actually enjoying each day we are given carrying our baby girl. Our midwives agreed that we could allow our pregnancy to “unfold,” meaning we didn’t have to have answers right away. What they’ve said all along but we are just understanding now is that while the testing probably won’t change the way they treat me, it might change the setting in which we deliver our baby. We’ve been praying that God would give us wisdom in the most judicious test to diagnose our baby’s condition. So in the next few weeks, we will be pursuing a fetal MRI, which should give us the best and most complete view of our baby girl. We are praying that the MRI would reveal without a doubt whether it’s safe to deliver at the birth center or whether we should transfer to an OB for a hospital birth. We’ll keep you posted about the scheduling of this test and the results. Please pray with us about this test. Pray that it would give us the wisdom we need to make the choice about where to best deliver our baby. Pray also that I would not be anxious. Right now for me ignorance is bliss; it’s what’s helping me truly enjoy this pregnancy. Pray that whatever the results my heart would choose to bless the Name of the Lord.

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Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Faith versus Fear

I always wish that I could sit right down at the computer to give you the update right after our appointments, but it never seems to work out that way. So thanks for your patience and continued prayers for our family!

I’m about 18 weeks along (almost halfway!), and I’m feeling good. I’m starting to show and had to give up my regular wardrobe a couple of weeks ago. I went to see our midwife last Thursday (October 22). Typical appointments include a weight check, blood pressure check, measuring my “belly” and listening to the baby’s heart beat. It took her a few minutes to find the baby’s heart beat. I think I held my breath most of that time! But…our little one has a great heart beat at about 140 beats per minute. I’m still measuring large for weeks but that may have to do with the position of the baby right now. We'll get a little peek inside in a few weeks on Friday, November 13th when we return to the maternal and fetal medicine specialist for another sonogram to check the baby’s development. I’ll update you after that appointment as soon as I’m able but until then please continue to pray:

Please pray for our little one—for that strong heart beat, for continued growth and fearful and wonderful development.

God has given me numerous occasions to choose to respond in faith during this pregnancy. Most times I have to will myself not to freak out and to trust the One who is knitting this little one together. His eyes see what ours can’t, and I’m learning to trust Him more. My stepmom has a little plaque on her bedroom wall that reads, “Worry slanders every promise in the Word of God.” Those words have often driven me to my knees and to His Word when fear tries to eclipse my faith in Him…when I first heard that something might be amiss, when I can’t sleep at night and worry about losing this little one, when I should have been feeling little kicks but wasn’t, when the midwife can’t find a heart beat, or when she says I’m measuring larger than I should. Our pastor reminded us this week that Christ left an example that we might follow in His steps and when He was faced with stress He prayed. I’m praying that whatever God is asking you to trust Him with that you will pray and find peace in the One who is ultimately trustworthy!